Journey Beyond the Spiritual Ego: A Tale Self-Realization

At the commencement of my spiritual journey, I was driven by an insatiable hunger for knowledge and a deep desire to break free from the programming and misconceptions I felt had shaped my worldview.

This phase of intense learning was a necessary step in my awakening process. In my quest for truth, I immersed myself in books and spiritual videos, forever altering how I perceived the world and my place in it. I relinquished my religious affiliations and delved headlong into various spiritual practices. Simultaneously, I embarked on a profound expedition toward self-discovery and mental healing, addressing my childhood traumas.

In those early days, the part of me that had always sensed a deeper, more profound reality was being validated, and I embraced it wholeheartedly. This spiritual journey has spanned several years, and now, for the first time, I feel that I genuinely comprehend the essence of spirituality. It’s about acknowledging the illusory nature of our perceived reality, liberating ourselves from the stories we weave about our lives, and transcending the constraints that others may attempt to impose on us.

Yet, amid the transformative effects of my spiritual awakening, I was far from being completely healed from the wounds of my past. I found myself, at times, looking down upon those I deemed “unawakened.” This attitude was fueled, in part, by the tumultuous relationships I encountered with family members who seemed to resent the newfound confidence and self-assuredness that my spiritual journey had granted me. It’s a common occurrence during a spiritual awakening; as your vibration shifts, some individuals in your life may drift away, while others may be perturbed by your inner radiance, sparking friction in your relationships.

I, too, succumbed to this external pressure, as I grappled with being condescended to by narcissistic individuals in my life. Regrettably, my spiritual ego took root, masking an underlying inferiority complex. Instead of addressing my own insecurities, I convinced myself that my spiritual gifts elevated me above others in some unspoken hierarchy.

Over the years, I quietly grappled with this internal struggle, largely concealed from the notice of those around me. It wasn’t until a profound kundalini awakening rocked my world, marking an even more intense phase of spiritual growth, that I was compelled to confront my shadows and deepest fears. It was during this period that I learned to harmonize with my inner self, embracing the reality that each person embarks on their unique journey. This realization deepened my relationships and allowed me to be more authentic.

I realized that I didn’t need others to conform to my expectations for me to love and accept them. I came to understand the value of respecting each person’s individual path. As a result, my relationships flourished, free from the constraints of my ego-driven desires.

Moreover, I shed the mantle of people-pleasing, discovering that when in alignment with my higher self, external validation became an inconsequential pursuit. I recognized my intrinsic worth and understood that I was deserving of love, even when I failed to meet others’ expectations, just as I held no expectations of perfection from them.

In conclusion, my spiritual journey has been one of profound transformation, encompassing the heights of knowledge acquisition, the pitfalls of ego-driven judgments, and the serenity of self-acceptance. It has taught me the power of empathy, authenticity, and the freedom that comes from living in alignment with my higher self. It’s an ongoing voyage, and I am excited to continue exploring the boundless depths of spiritual growth, free from the shadows of my past insecurities.